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Homewrecker series Part 10

How dreamy is it when someone feels like home to you. But it is a thing to wonder what home was for you. Was it safe, spoilt, secure and everything comfortable? Or was it chaos, instability, drama and lies. Because if it was the latter my dear. Think again when someone you love starts to feel like home. What is that saying again. Oh yes, once bitten twice shy……

A year passed since the Gala. Alec and Tanya have become so close, often meeting at port side Hyatt since his company has a permanent suite booked there. No sign or contact from Mr. Kline in the mean time. He must have found God or the spark with his wife again. Their marriage is meant to break someday its better if Tanya is not the reason and the talk of town for it- Tanya assumes and moves on. Being with Alec is the closest to dating and courtship Tanya has ever experienced. They have gone to many road trips together. She often accompanies him on his work trips. He celebrates her milestones, and they have shared many good memories. Even flying out to a different city once joining the mile high club.

Tanya thinks to herself…..

Being with Alec has been such a beautiful journey. Mr. Kline used to make her feel like he owns her but with Alec it’s like he worships her. Both feelings are completely ethereal, they both had a different way to make her feel complete. But something still feels like a miss.

Mr. Kline was a married man, too cowardly to leave his family. Lucas was a lost case on a journey for revenge and not all fits well with Alec either. Because every night that she has spent with him since the gala, he has confessed he is growing attached to her of how he dreams of what life would be like if they were together forever. But then a call comes along each time which leaves him a bit flustered, and he excuses himself out or cancels or delays plans made with Tanya. He even promised to be her reference if ever she goes ahead the same career path as him.  Every morning, he made her breakfast neatly packed, her childhood favorites. Eggs jelly butter and bread.

There is knock on Tanya’s bedroom door, its mum “Tanya my dear I wanted to discuss something with you, you will be graduating soon and your dad and I were wondering if you are open to the idea of doing an internship at your uncle’s firm in Sweden. It starts next month”

Whoa that’s a lot of information and a huge deal. If she completes her internship in Sweden, career opportunities can be insane. But she drifts towards the thought of Alec. Mum notices her solemn mood “Take your time Tanya, let me know what you think there is no pressure”  and with that she gives Tanya a forehead kiss and leaves.

She quickly dials Alec’s number. He answers but his voice merely a whisper “Hola beautiful, how are you” he chimes. She debates if she should ask him to come over and discuss about the Sweden situation. “Hey babe, can you come over, I have something to discuss with you” there’s a pause on his side and then a quick yes in response. He should be here in fifteen minutes.

Alec has been nice to her, he is sweet, plays the guitar and sings for her. His favorite genre is afro pop apparently. But something feels off each time they talk about the future. Soon minutes pass by, and he is with Tanya in her room. Her parents had left for a conference, so the coast was clear. She tells him all about the Sweden situation and how their relationship will work out.

Tanya expects a huge smile or sparkle in his eyes instead he goes quite. Deep in his thoughts.

“What happened Alec? All ok”

“Yes babe I was just mustering up to confess something”

Tanya’s heart drops with him saying those words but nods to make him continue.

“I should have told you this long back, but I am to be engaged to a girl by next year. I know what this sounds like and I’m so sorry. I was about to tell you. The girl has been with me since we were teens, we met during our engineering years. I have dated on and off with other girls since I wasn’t sure, but I have stringed her along for years and our parents, friends and reputation is too entangled for me to back off now”

Tanya takes a moment to adjust to the fact that there is yet another coward sitting in front of her.

Where do men find the audacity, she wonders…….

Alec notices how tense Tanya is and continues. “But then I met you Tanya, you were everything I have ever wanted, but I come from a conservative religion. Different from yours……You come from an affluent family and I am not at the stage of life to complete or compete with your high expectations, and this girl she has done so much over the years and if I say no what will  people think of me? we are from the same city we have moved countries together, I want someone who can look after my mum someone who handles my anger and I don’t know! I was just looking at the bigger picture”

His next monologue soon sounds like an excuse to Tanya as she zones out. The Jist of the situation is that he has a high school sweetheart. This girl is a year older than him, doesn’t expect much as she is ready to financially work together with him build an empire by managing it all while he will clearly be mentally stuck in his twenties. She is one of those girls who would give in financially, have sex, birth his children, look after his parents and continue her delusion. Just to say that he is her man, that she is the women he chose over the rest. While all he has to do is follow along, while she takes the mental load happily. Jesus Christ! What a shit show.

Alec is choosing a girl based on perks not love or maybe there was love once. Life will continue while he just bussies himself with work or affairs not accepting the total lack of compatibility. There will always be an excuse of why he chooses to stay in that dreadful loveless loop. He is indirectly happily confessing this while looking straight into Tanya’s eyes.

In Alec’s own description of that girl, she sounds like the type who would forgive him even if in the future he fucks someone from her family or every coworker he comes across and in return she will birth more children and have a joint mortgage with him while sipping cocktails in Fiji which she paid halves on. He is the type to spend a decade with her although he will lose every penny of financial freedom and then blame it on the kids or past decisions of why they are now in a flat mate level companionship but still go ahead on a tropical island to renew their marriage vows just to break it again down the line.

Yes yes, it is a bit too descriptive. But the way this man has been yapping about his story with this dame its clear as daylight of what kind of man he is or “boy” as its more fitting and the kind of life he wishes to lead. And no fucking way is Tanya going to lower her standards or compromise on her expectations just so he chooses her. That girl can have him!

How can Tanya go so wrong in choosing men, she wonders while he continues to talk and gaslight her in the background. Tanya wonders why she didn’t see the red flags, didn’t catch his lies. He is the type to lie about how a grandparent died so that he can excuse himself and miss out on a milestone or farewell with Tanya just because he wanted to juggle two women at once and couldn’t keep up with his words.

Tanya feels her chest tightening. Her eyes on the brink of tears. But she won’t let a man who clearly lied to her see how much his betrayal is affecting her. Millions of questions pass by her head. Like, Why can’t he stand up for himself and claim his love for her? Why can’t he upgrade himself to be a better man for Tanya rather than taking the easy route? Why is he choosing a woman just out of pure means and convenience? Why doesn’t he have the courage to face the world and choose what he really wants and not what society deems moral? Why is this man not losing his mind at the thought that I will be someone else’s if he doesn’t claim me? WHY IS HE A COWARD?

Did any of the moments they spent together felt real to this man? Were his kisses, confessions and tears ever genuine. Did he sing for the other girl too. Did he cancel on plans that Tanya looked forward to each time because he was busy with her or couldn’t say no to her? Was seeing Tanya crying her lungs out because of how he hardly kept his words worth it in his eyes because he was keeping the other girl happy and out of his way.

Tanya spirals further in her mental anguish.

Instead, Alec is in tears at this point again as he begs Tanya to respond. She is still in shock. Currently he is promising her the world in the next life and is apologizing profusely. In that moment Tanya understood. That he is not the man for her. He cannot choose her because he leads a life where he doesn’t even choose himself. A man who betrays his own self, how can you expect him to not betray everyone else. He has a lot of growing up to do to ever be considered Tanya’s man. If she takes him back now without him being a true man and claiming her in front of the world asking for forgiveness for betraying her and the other women, he is just buying more time to keep deceiving her, juggling her and keeping her in a stressed dynamic for life.

She slowly gets up from her bed and takes Alec’s hand walking the confused man towards the main door of her house. Alec falls on his knees. Joining his hands pleading.

“I’m so sorry babe, I really do love you, I am just looking at my circumstances, I am trying my best”

Tanya looks at his tears wondering if any of it is real, this is the same man who is willingly choosing a future where Tanya is not his. How weak, how manipulative can this man be, did he ever truly love her. Tanya wonders a bit more before getting him up back on his feet and responding.

“Alec, I truly loved you. But you are not the man for me. You have made your choices and it’s with someone else. You will always be “trying” never actually just standing on your words. I can’t comprehend how much you have lied to me or how much you lead your life with lies and regret. But I never want to see you again, and if you dare to meet me against my wishes over the years, I hope it’s in a way that’s worth it without lies, without baggage without guilt or bad karma. Thank you for all that you did for me but now u need to fuck off” Tanya pushes him out the door and locks it behind her running back to her room. Taking her time to digest what the actual fuck just happened.

The next couple nights pass by in a blur. Tanya feels numb to the way how another man left making her feel used and optional. The journey was wild and traumatic.

Alec leaves many calls and texts, and they all look half assed. She notices his posts with the other girl on his social media, watches him attend concerts and living life as if nothing fazed him. Maybe because nothing did faze him.

He gets drunk one day or so he claims and removes Tanya off all socials. But it is probably to clear his coast to openly post about his life where he renews his life with that girl and not feel an ounce of emotion of the destruction he left in Tanya’s life.

Why would he even? I guess Tanya should’ve known better.

He claims pictures don’t tell the full story of how its not as good as it looks for him in his life. Only if there was a way to shove his hypocrisy and fake victimization up his ass, Tanya would be first in line.

Eventually days turn into a month and Tanya decides to grab the opportunity to go ahead with the internship in Sweden. Her mother supports her through her preparations for it. The day finally arrives, New Year is just around the corner and her flights have been booked.

New country, New job, New phone number and many lovely experiences await her.

With her passport in hand waiting on the gate of her flight she thinks back to how much she is going to miss her friends and family but also how happy she is to leave behind all the bits of unavailable and lost selfish souls in grown man bodies behind. All of them have taken a part of her heart and trust just to break it through their cowardly ways.

She promises to only date for marriage moving forward. Start a clean slate and only her husband now gets to touch her. Her womb, her love, loyalty and her energy deserve a capable man and nothing less.

“Sweden, here I come baby” Tanya does a silent boo-yeah with her arms in the air celebrating this mental victory and walks away….

A home built on the pieces of another never gets to live peacefully.

Unlike reality the story of a homewrecker is nothing but a Telenovela…..

——To be continued——

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-Penned by : DesiG

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