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DREAMS

We all go through so many experiences in life.

Some fun , some tragic and some unexpected ones . It all forms memories stored away back in our unconscious mind. We might think we have forgotten those moments or those people. But they live on, deep in our memories. Some bad ones might even be labelled as trauma. It is all on how we look at it.

But, the one place it may come out to haunt us is in our Dreams

They can feel so real, we can feel everything from what we have always wanted to feel. To everything we have been trying not to feel. It is a place where we can find an escape from reality or a place that cages us, waiting for us to fall into them every night.

Dreams. Such a mystery land, a place where people visit their darkest secrets, their most awaited desires, their insecurities, the undying attraction to lust and their hope. Some hate it some question it and some simply don’t have them.

It is said when you don’t have a dream that is when your soul is the most tired or most lost. Why is it then, that we are happy when we don’t have them, why is it that we say we had a good sleep when our dreams don’t visit us.

Is it because being away from that dream reality is an achievement for some? To finally not see the harsh truth and desires visit you, taunt you, remind you. To finally ignore it consciously and subconsciously.

If that is so, what happens when we die in our sleep. Is it the final achievement? The achievement to not feel anymore? To finally lay it all to … rest.

Dreams. They confuse me. They make me feel emotions that I have never felt before. Makes us wonder how does the brain know what an emotion feels like, if it has not felt it before when awake. Makes us wonder if it knows more, makes us wonder if the snippets we dream are of our future, or maybe our past or the worst; Is it what was supposed to happen to us but didn’t.

Dreams. I had one last night. I woke up with my hands spread with palms upright. I woke up waiting for the stench of iron and despair to fill my nostrils, waiting to see…. blood. But it didn’t come. I looked around and that’s when I realized it was a dream.

But I never knew what blood smells like. How did my brain make me smell it? sense it. What was it trying to say? How did I know what someone’s blood on my hands felt like? Was I destined to do the unthinkable, was my past life a part of the shallows? Or was it something I was supposed to be doing that night instead of sleeping.

I will never know, or , maybe I will. When it decides to come haunt me again down the lane

Dreams. I wait for you. I will wait for you to come to me, wait for you to answer me.

I will wait. I will Wait. I will Wait.

-Penned by DesiG

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  6. Felt almost traumatized by reading this!
    And I never felt such short word” DREAM” can have multiple way of expressing for each one of us living in the world.
    Good work girl!!

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  8. You go Girl ❤ Loved it. You have got the "words to come to life" spirit. As I was reading I was lost in the topic for few minutes.
    Great job. Looking forward to see many more to come.

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  11. It is really thoughtful for dream.
    It may be possible to understand the situation of conscience and subconscious mind by
    doing meditation (i.e. Vipassana ).
    Best wishes. Be happy, healthy, peaceful in life.

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    1. Yes, it is a dream I had for sure . It was in third person . The character was traumatized when she had accidently resulted in the death of a young boy while opening a gate like void . She hence refused to open any doors herself , had to always ask someone else to do so . … I took a part of this dream and used it for this concept. .. hope you liked it !!

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  14. Very thoughtflog 👍
    I feel I didn’t get sound sleep if I don’t get a dream,it’s ok if I don’t remember it , sometimes I do remember but I always have a dream and I love that cause that gives me a great satisfied sleep😊

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  17. A thought-provoking piece. I enjoyed that you raised a lot of questions. It made me feel like a part of the process, and I was raptured.

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